bleergh . random. i keep making mental notes on what to blog about .. without ever actually blogging.

school's still on the weird level . : ) but in a good way . some how our little class is really united and well knit . we all know every single other person and i definitely don't want to leave 11 B nao : D xD but then the studying part is only partly hard ... and i still have to get used to that.but i will . so that's peachy . sort off.. :) uhm uhm ok so i'ma talk bout random stuff now so ...uhm ... yea

have u ever been so close to someone ,shared some of your happiest moments with someone and then about 1 month [ or a year] later of moving on with your life and what not you sit in front of that person blankly without saying a word and completely unable to say anything that makes sense ? : ) weird right? oh well

oh yeah there's this other thing too . lol . just rememberd. what is it with guys? i mean i guess it's just india or whatever with so many guys who whistle or make some other random noises when they walk towards u or whatevr , but there are these select ' gentle-man/boy-ly ' few who actually step aside when girls approach . and rarely even smile . no srsly , what is it with guys anyway ? O.o what's with all the staring they do ...does it hurt to blink a little ? [ no i'm not just talking about me aiite ? abt guys and girls in general] they stare as if ,one blink will make them blind until they're at about 10 feet radius from you and then they look VERY OBVIOUSLY away with / without ruffling the back of their head while staring at something random like a bird / fan / ceiling / light bulb / cloud [u get the picture ] all from a certain angle off the ground . [ yes all that physics does have varying effects on my brain ] is it just india ? : o or are ALL guys the same ? tsk tsk .

blehh .. . ohohohohoho .
o yeashers
happy onam : )
be good
tata
p.s. will update more pinky swear :D

:) . wow. today we had special class till 4 [again.] and then after i screamed "I WANT TO GO HOME!" about a million times in class after 3:15 and then mumbled for a little more time, i guess everyone got the message. and then like 5 people offered me a ride home. which was kind of weird. but then i'd already asked another girl before :) .[because i was stupid enough to not have any money on me . ] well anyway she dropped me at gill nagar [haha] which is kinda closish- farish. but the point was i didn't know which part of the place i was in . but i knew like i had to go westwards, and with the sun setting and all i kinda figured out where " west " was, and then i just walked in high spirits randomly picking which street to take at crossroads. but it was kinda hard walking with the sun so stupidly blinding me . because i was like " Where, the heck am I? " and then i'd be like " Wait.i know this place." and then i'd walk into a shady area ,only to realise i was definitely NOT in the place i thought i was in . o well. walking walking walking , i found the good ol' cooum river. walked upstream it . then it took a turn into a narrowish street so i just continued ditching it. then i have no clue how ... but i ended up in lydia's street and then i...smiled:) lol jk it was pretty straightforward frm there . but at that point my back started acting up becauze of my two tonne bag . so yea . oh yea and then i think i saw evita and leo on a bike [ i.e. if their still together...] coz he kinda almost drove into me and then she went ayaye. and i caught a glimpse. and when i turned back it looked like them , or summat . coz her schools in gill nagar or some shizz. and then i saw my house , and right then it had puffy clouds around it. :) lol cyaz chikitaz :D
pee.es. :) xD dunt get lost yall.

aah it's been a while. a sad sad wait D: . it's all because of ...well...the trees.yes that's why.i have a heck a lot of things to fill in from the past month but i thought i'd talk about today first and talk about be4 today ,some other time when i have nothing to talk about :P . so here goes.

OMG OMG OMG.
i cannot believe this is possible. no . NO! . T_T . but,o well k so here's the problem :David's gone. for good. =I.i still haven't completely comprehended the fact i mean
it's not possible right? Wrong! apparently.it's so frustrating , but i'm learning to live with it i think.
now that david's gone i realise all the things about him that makes him so darn lovable.he was beautiful.[times infinity] with an awesome sound system and gorgeously large screen for lovely movie watching experiences.haha. yes . edward was my computer. many a happy time i've had with him .RIP DAVID U WILL BE MISSED. RIP! it just goes to show,when life gives u the best of things --it's when u should remember that it ain't going to last forever and u should cherish every moment with it. -sigh- .
o well.
this one is the new boring boxy black kind. so yea..

i guess the rest of today went pretty normally. :D

p.s. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo remember to keep smiling :)

9 days since school started :) . the first day was kind of shocking. it just left me in this trance is all :O.i mean with the tiny classroom with barely 30 people and we just randomly sat with 2 empty rows at the back.i visited the otha 2 classrooms and they were both large.though there were chairs only in the front-ish. And what's the big idea putting the 3 classrooms in 3 different corners of the class.well our class was farthest away -is actually. and then i got a cold .haha. and somehow things started to SEEM better atleast.new uniform day rolled in. and this year all the juniors [in van anyway] look at me weirdly. well i feel weird too. school's weird.people look the same but seem different. hoping to get used to it.van is definitely not what it used to be.it's more cramped up now.this other girl took my spot [ and anuther girl took almaaz's -the one opposite mine] so uhm uhm.the girls new so i cut her some slack [:P] school is getting a little normal i guess...but still not the perfect amount.D: .o well . things have to get better once u've hit rock bottom right? RIGHT! atleast i hope so (:
p.s.xoxoxoxx

school starts tomorrow.And I am anything but looking forward to it for some reason even though i absolutely had nothing to do over summer =/ . o Well wish me luck for school.NEW year and i'm hoping it'll be the best :D
xoxo
-me <3
p.s. better updates later

so i successly updated my blog backround :D ... until i decide to change it again anway. The old one was getting kind of rusty anyway : / so have fun . i know i am.enjoy your stay

xoxoxox
-me <3

Love is patient and kind;
Love is not jealous or boastful;
it is not arrogant or rude.
Love does not insist on it's own way;
it is not irritable or resentful;
it does not rejoice at wrong,
but rejoices in the right.
Love bears all things
endures all things,
Love never ends ; ...
- 1st corinthians 13:4-8

I just thought this rant would be incomplete without those versus,and to those of you who've already heard that a million times and skipped to this part... I don't really blame you.
what is love? .Ok, so the post above pretty much answers that...although we know it's true it sounds a little far fetched.I looked around a lot and thought about it ...who hasn't ?we all know love isn't love if it's hate.ok i know that sounds wack.But it's what the first 7 lines of the above lines talk about anyway. And then after all that if you still like the person ,flaws and all,and bear it ...with little or no complaints... it means u love that person,right? Sure. True friendship is love. Isn't that what " love " is all about?Going out of your way for someone inspite of yourself.Liking them even more than yourself sometimes...LOVE ... lOvE. LoVe. it's a weird word. some people love it and some despise it. But when and why do u decide to like that special someone?. the word love has taken so many twists over history .

Let's see what wikipedia has to say about this :

Love is any of a number of emotions and experiences related to a sense of strong affection^[1] and attachment. The word love can refer to a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure ("I loved that meal") to intense interpersonal attraction ("I love my boyfriend"). This diversity of uses and meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even compared to other emotional states.

ok so we're talking about the feeling or emotion love here ..

Even after all this time

The sun never says to the earth, "You owe me."

Look what happens with a Love like that!

—It lights the whole Sky. (Hafiz)

:D.I guess i understand most of love now ... atleast how enfuring it is,when it's true anyway.
but the last line

"Love never ends ; ..." is kind of ..uhm different? ...if it's never-ending then what about all those marriages that go down the drain and end up in divorce.So it's obivous their love isn't true then ? or was it earlier,but not just then.But then it isn't love.Confusing isn't it? yea i thought so too.sort of... i guess people don't think of love that way these days ... maybe some people do :)


there, i like this...ranting stuff :D maybe i'll continue later with a different topic,or a part 2 of this one ... but some other time when i have more time :)

xoxoxox
with loads of love
me <3>

LOL the title has nothing to do with this post p: anyhoo.
hahahahah...[sorry just felt like it.] \

today is friday and the only day of the week where they put new episodes of stuff in disney ~ [yes I DO still watch disney ] so i was dawdling away the week in anticipation of today and then dawdled furthermore today until around 4 ish ... a frnd called and asked if i wanted to go skating [no , not ice] since i had an ancient pair which i didnt use anyway i said yes and vowed that i would learn. so quickly i got dressed and blah and off we went on our cycles ...and only then did i find out she intended on going to shenoy nagar park ... which was kinda farther than i expected and had like 2 main roads we had to cross first ... lol we had to walk thru the main roads of course...too much traffic to actually ride our cycles and then yippety yappety along the way in 20 minutes or so [o.o] finally foundd the dang place... after the park was this place where u could skate and play tennise we went and sat on the railing of the rink-like-place.and sat and stared dumbly . and stared . and stared. lol some people stared at us staring ...we struggled our skates into place and traded elbow -knee pads . and stood up ... but we were somehow too chicken to actually go and skate xD and this lady behind us lightly lauffing as we PHAILED TO get the guts to go in there .. the thng was there were too many people in there. .. wizzing like mad and nonchalantly ran into the "not-that-much-of-an-expert" people hehe ...we fussed about ... wtched the sun set ... some nice looking people haha ... and then we began on our long journey homewards :P ,, believe it or not it was fun /// i can't stop smiling ..even tho i'm as tired as a pack mule ... thats a lot of cycling and walking there . and i'm satisfied :D .

lol came home.ate.came online . and moped around and then debz pops up and is online ... i always smile when she's online : ) dunno why tho O.o . it's always so much fun talking to her and we havent spoken onl. in like the past 6 months??? and so we were reminiscing on the days-of-ben-barnes-and-life-with-derek, hehe . nice.nice.nice ~

p.s. <3 (;

tra lalalalala.

i haven't blogged in a while...and even when i do , i don't feel like i want to ... i just feel like i have to ya know? >.>
but this time is dIFFERENT
ahah!
hmmhmhmh

craziness.i had so much planned for the summer...and veryfew,i've actually done...and even the few i've done...i havent done properly : P

i got my haircut ... i just don't want to talk about it ... nuff said
hopefully i can do something about it ...
other than that today has been average
*bites nails* sheesh i wish i know what to do these holidays
tip # 1 ... never cut my hair for the next century .i feel so bleh about it
BLEH .
gitchi gitchi goo means that i love you ,i said bow chika ... uh nvm
i wish i were in a magical place...no no scratch that . ... i wish THIS was a magical place ...everything is nice and happy...not perfect ...but nice and happy [ ya know , almost perfect: P ]

haha.there's this other girl who constantly asks me guy advice ... lol no i'm not very experienced in that area...but it's nice just to be there for them subtly helping ... you know C: ... haha..wateva...

lol so wish me luck on figuring out the perfect solution for my hair !! [i need all the luck i can get :D ]


with loads of love
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
-jeff

*deep breath*.
So I guess the same thing's going on in everyone's minds ...well along the same lines anyway."can't believe it,we're done with 10th!" *eeee* or the "Sh**! we're done with 10th! we're so old! can u believe it?.." bla bla.Either ways.Isn't it weird how when we have fun , things fly ...but later when we actually sit down to think about it,we realise all the things we did... how much we laughed :] .And when we don't [like writin' exams] the days drag on foreva and we're counting down by the minutes but when it's over ...we barely remember anything that happened...the things we messed up.It's like it's been pushed back and out of our memories [until the results come out anyway..hehe] . But I'm glad it's this way ,and not Vice Versa ^^ . And so now the grand B DAYS are over and we're free to do what we want,when we want with no restrictions ~
Your probably wonderin why i'm sittin here so joblessly typin away . Lol i dunno why so dun ask and yea HAPPY HOLIDAYS :D :D xD :] C : 8D
-jeff
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lol i just thought i'd post this here :D
p.s.better updates later!

lol. board exams in 8 days [i don't know what's funny about that] .So there's little or no chance that you'll find me lurking ..unfortunately...or fortunately... today was definitely like no other why don't we do a list :D ...i seem to like them somehow

Things that made today different from other days : (9/03/2009/)[Monday]

1. I finally decide to take an umbrella to keep the heat off my face and it starts drizzling as i walk outdoors...
2. I usually wait from 5-30 minutes to get an appropriate share auto ... today i waited like 1/2 a minute.
3. I reach school like 20 minutes early and breeze in.
4. I got an entire bar of Diary Milk from someone who I didn't talk to for a couple of years...until today,just 'coz i hung out with her and said belated happy birthday like everyone else : / [ i must be nicer to people.]
   
5. I actually didn't eat the humongous thing and gave to my friends to share
   
6. Dana actually came to school today...after like 2 years?more? no hologram...real live pinch-able Dana.
7. I actually got the terrace key ,from neighbors whom I thought were self absorbed and they smiled and appreciated my clothing sense [I was wearing shorts and T...'nuff said]after trying to reach them for 2 days.
8. Got my geography paper today and Ranjini miss actually appreciated me in front of entire class saying my paper was very presentable and that I had made it easy for the teacher for correcting [yes there is nothing in it for me.] and finishing on time.
9. Pingu is a Squealer._.,be aware.
10. Got an 88 % in a math test I studied for like 2 hours ...which is higher than what all my other "tuition" going friends got.[should have studied harder]..Expecting the results for the other math test for which i'm sure i did better . [hopefully]
    

I guess i'll be leaving now...kinda tired had a helluva day i mean heavenuva day :D
hope your day went well
tata.
p.s. You know I'm just leading you on with these don't you :D

this post duz not exist anymore ...i blame myself for being stewpid ... i'm sorry [not intented for everyone]
p.s. better updates later

:)
i just wanna say goodbye
although it doesn't seem like the right thing to say
we've had times that were low and high
and now your done and on your way
please stay ,dunt go away,please stay.
GOODBYE 2008! u will always be missed =] *brave smile*
-jeffy [11:35 Pm 31st dec 2008]

i dunt av much time...so i guess i'll make this spiffy [ if tht's a word ._.]
I've been die-ing lately [like my blog] ....out of boredom [ so dunt worry : )] and yea so i just wanted to say thish :
YOU KNOW U'VE HIT ROCK BOTTOM [or ur getting there] WHEN :
1. Ur in some place with ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO DO ... BUT LIE AROUND AND WATCH THE SKY CHANGE [not that it's too bad...] or plaster a smile at ur relatives
2. When u dunt have anyone around you who maketh u laugh [._.]
3.U knw sound like a 2 year old when ur screamng " I wanta goh HOME *pout*"

ohk ohk..so i mmaay......be exaggerating like a teensy weensy bit ..but then i wouldn't be here otherwise to ..uhm ... rant ?
i wanted to blog earlier on DECEMBER 20th to be exact .... when a bunch of us got together...and well we got bored and we started tlking abt well...ghosts...sayances[however u pronouce tht ... ]and other creepy stuff [*grabs bear*]...yeash there was a lot of "sharing" of experiences and screaming unneccessarily and looking at the bathroom with fright [ apparently its supposed to be the creepiest room of the house...cause it opens into the underworld ._.]
and the age-old question ..a basic of how all creepiness evoluted from .... arised "so,Do u belive in ghosts" ......although i DEFINITELY cannot say a strict no ... i dunt thnk we have a reason to be that spooked...coz well ...ghosts, humans we're all just existences on this world...and as long as we dunt interfere with one anuther...i think there's nothing to be afraid of...although ghosts well they are the ones to be pitied...to be SO disturbed or unable to "pass on to the next world?" ..sadsadsad...
anyway..i just wanted to get it out of my system by saying that ... i gotta jet nao
p.s. better updates later pinky swear [ as always]
p.p.s MERRY CHRISTMAS : D [and happy new year in case i dunt update : ) ]

so our test today was cancelled becauz..well becoz one of our teachers past away ...S:.as soon as i found out i and changed out of my uniform..i plonked online and have been sitting here for around 2 and a 1/2 hours now..bleh,things have been going well..weird,crazy,wakaaooo, Average.-.-

Top Ten Reasons Why I feel DEAD :

1. ....[ It is against my moral disciplines to type out point number 1 under TTRWIFDead *kekeke*]
2. Becaus I'm Sleepy...and i should be sleeping
3. Because it's 10:30 in the morning and my TV's busted D:
4. Because..well just because.
5. Because i should be doing more ...than well...than sitting?[and yes more than breathing as well]
6. I should be studying
7. Because of how good the weather is for a nice nap <3>
8. Because my songs bore me [ *GASP!* did i just say that ]
9. Because i have a day off and i have done absolutely nothing interesting
10. -sorry the person u are trying to reach is currently dead...please try again later-

Books that i like right now :

1. Just Ella - Fairy tale lovers....beware.

2.under the category of all time favourite : the Amazing Days of Abby Hayes - Anne Mazer

ytdy as usual there i was tryng to be quiet in geography and then i decided i should be more than quiet...i should be attentive and answer every question she asked ... and thats exactly what i did ... but since i was a litle way down the back and i am guessing all she saw was me opening and closing my mouth ... i guess that's all she needed to pick on me ... i was tryng to say "TAX" loudly ... she didn't hear...and then 5 minutes later there i was sitting on the floor with a lot of other girls without places...*heh...that's the best she can do?* lots of girls were sittin on the floor due the lack of space availabe ... so i merely considered this as a punishment and then i continued doodling on my Text Book and tryng to be silent. this world is a weird weird place...

~Maybe someday we'll know~

now the tradition : thanks evryone whose reading this for being patient with me .Better updates later [maybe i should start using BUL :P]

anyways luv and squishes <3